Time to Play...!!!

Do you ever get tired of playing board games?
Or computer games?
Am sure every now and then as a human being, we kinda get tired of what we normally do from the day-to-day basis and of course opt for changes....

Well, here's a game that at first I wasn't quite into it for it involves peoples lives....
But on a second thought basis....I changed my mind....
So for YOU who have been threatening ME...
Watch out!!!
You might get more than YOU bargain for...
It's time to PLAY the game of LIFE...

I have nothing to lose for am used to having friends come and go...
No doubt I will feel BAD at first, but that will pass me by like a breeze...
Are you really WILLING to lose it all???
As I recalled, YOU can't take being alone...

I was being so nice to you...
TOO NICE..
till I allow you to threaten me....

Oh well, I believe I have had enough, don't you?...
If YOU don't see your errors and change...
Don't say I didn't warn you...

Of course, I will let you take the first move...
Cross my line and you shall see...
The other side of me...

BRING IT ON!!! AM DYING TO SEE WHAT YOU HAVE TO OFFER......

Thursday, October 22, 2009

My advise when you have had enough of excuses...

When life gets you down...you pick yourself up and say to yourself..... "hey things might turn out worse".....or "tomorrow will be a better day"....positive attitude is the key to survive in this cruel world that is eating us all inside....

But what do you say when your friends treat you like shit...or people you care for treat you like an enemy.....
let me tell you what to say and do....
1. if its the first time it happens...smile to yourself and tell yourself this.."people often make mistakes, and this is just one of them"...or..."he/she will come around that am doing it for his/her own good"....

2. if the situation repeats itself within a month length.... repeat 1. like i said before...people often make mistakes....am sure you do too.... :)

3. if the situation constantly repeats itself....it could only mean 2 things... either

a. your friend is an asshole who thinks he/she is so right about life and everything around it....
b. he/she is suffering from a breakdown crisis....

HONEST TRUTH....its normally option a.....wanna know how i am so sure about this....reflect upon yourself and the people you mix with....how many times do you hear excuses and finger pointing on who's right and wrong and who's not to face the truth.....too many??? if so...that person you're thinking about is an absolute jerk/asshole....save your energy and don't give a damn....cause honestly if someone is suffering from a breakdown...they either totally shut down or act out weird...either in rage or in emotional state.....this I know best cause am a victim of often breakdowns....

I may not be the perfect gal to tell you what is to be done and what is not....but i can tell you this....people who often sends you messages on how wrong you are and how you constantly say they are judging you....there may be a truth in it that you're messages appear judgmental to them...so instead of being an asshole/a jerk...analyse it before answering back and assuming you know everything about someone.... cause mostly the truth is you don't know anything....

Lately, I have had "friends" who think they are so right.....who thinks am backstabbing them....telling other people things.....here's what i say to myself..."fuck them all...if they know me they will know who and how I am...." trust me when i say its not a monthly accused its a weekly...daily...hourly accused..till am so frustrated and so fed up...that I have to blog about it......GOD....this is getting really annoying....don't you think??? to read about advises that lastly turn out to be my complaints.....oh well...

Best advise am giving.... "if you think you know me...then you're wrong...cause if you know me that you won't say things like you did....." if you feel that way and other people you know feels the same away about a particular person.....then TO HELL WITH THAT PERSON.....cause honest truth people who calls you friend and says they know you well enough won't say things that would end up hurting you..... :)

kudos to you all and hugs hugs

Monday, October 19, 2009

feel so sick.....

Lately I feel so sick.....SICK of society and their crappy nonsense on how the world should be better but not going to do anything about it.....SICK of the people around me always telling me lies and backstabbing me....SICK of being nice and yet being treated like an enemy....SICK of the politics that consumed our nation with bullshit....SICK of trying to make as much achievement as possible in such little time....SICK of being SICK...and most importantly SICK of feeling the way I do inside for all these times.....

Do you think I would enjoy my life?
Honestly, I try...ever so hard to smile and be crazy and just be happy....
But lately it's getting so difficult...my composure and poise of being me is well affected by the things and actions that are being done around me and in society....
Even going into a public lift sometimes disgust me for am surrounded people who knows nothing but yet yapped as if they know about everything....

I may have my own views in life and about the society...am pretty sure that the views that I have are just and right....but then again each of us has our own version of right....I guess at the end it would all come down to whether if I can withstand it or not....

Not to mention the pain I feel grows more intense and the lack of sleep is not helping me feeling any better....pain killers will sooner or later have no effect on me at all.....damn this life that I live....I think it's time for me to smile and just be who I always try to be....someone else but me....

Thursday, September 10, 2009

FOAMY makes my day :)

Have you check out the latest from ILL WILL PRESS??? FOAMY rocks....haha....
the witty comments on society and their views on environment; made me laugh my head off....honest truth that is how I feel too....why support the environmental cause but caused so much more wastage in life....oh the episode on FASHION is the one I LOVE best today.....PUNK n GOTHIC is a sub-stream of culture not a main-stream.....so don't try to be PUNK/GOTHIC if you don't know what it means...cause you're just going to spoil the truth and sincerity of it's nature....

seriously totally love,love,love FOAMY the SQUIRREL....check it out guys...I long already posted the link on my web....just recently for the past month I didn't update myself therefore I didn't mention it....so since am sick at home and got nothing else better to do....am watching FOAMY from the episodes i missed out n the ones I love so dearly from the last time....


ENJOY FOAMY

Friday, August 28, 2009

you cared too late....

"So what have you been up to???" said a "friend" (v will call this person J) whom I lost contact for 4 years....

I smiled and replied "well, the usual, and so much more..."
in my head was....'if you actually cared and replied my emails or phone msgs....you would know that 4 years changes a lot of things...especially in my life...'

"I see you still love to smile and reply, even when things are not right." said J.

"well it's not like you will save me from the meetings of hell when it happens" I smirked.
(notice that am giving more witty comments daily)

a moment of silence happen..with J's expression changing slowly but yet hiding the truth of how it felt. I punch J in the arm and smiled. "like always, from then,now and future. right?"

can tell that J wasn't happy with me...totally.....I guess J wanted to be there but never got the chance to....

Honestly J if you're reading this, you cared too late....if you have chosen the path to ignore me and delete me...then why did you ever came back to talk to me? honestly, what were you hoping from me? that I will open up to you and let you actually care and be there for me like it was 4 years ago? come on.....within the 4 years...all that has happen... I took the blame, I let you choose your path....you choose to walk away and never look back...what made you change your mind? I asked you why? and your reply was total silence....if you expect me to be who I was when treating friends that I care a lot...then honestly, forget it....cause I change....so much has happen and so many disappointing moments I experienced with friends made me realized that.....to all of my friends that I care so much or mind...am just a friend....expandable if felt like it....to you I was the same....

I know there will be people telling you of this post....well J...know for a fact that I hold no grudge against what you did...but please don expect me to be who I used to be...it don't work anymore....I don't function like that anymore.....all in all HUGS from me....and all the best to you...

I hope you can understand what I said when we met and now here.....

Monday, August 24, 2009

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To think that you have had enough of it....can't believe you came back for more.....you can't get bored de ma? I honestly feel sick and tired of it....so wu liao.....wasting my time, credit and energy....to top it up giving me headache and a constant unwanted bull......ENOUGH is ENOUGH......you always say things like how unreasonable I am and how I always like to shoot you....IF IT MAKES YOU STOP MESSAGING ME AND BEING A DOUCHE...I DON'T MIND ADMITTING ALL THAT HAS HAPPEN IS MY FAULT...... I honestly don't mind to take the blame...at least it would spare me the crap and unwanted headaches......

apart from being pissed for all the wrong people.....I pass my exam....and yes I would love to work harder for the coming one...but in reality am short of energy and brain power to do so....feel like going on a holiday....better yet...feel like changing my handphone no for good...but all in all...it's just feelings that cannot be accomplished right now.....

am wondering at home, when will this crap and bull end.....I mean, it's so lame and tiresome to actually go throught history over and over....moreover....am getting tired and sick till the point that I want to delete the existence of life....haha....hopeful and wishful thinking of deleting existence of life......oh well guess like always I just have to cope with it and be myself.....and ignore the things that I feel is wasting my energy and time.....

As long as I am satisfied with myself and don't have to feel headaches am cool with it...honestly just totally cool with it....I don't mind losing a friend....especially one like you....cause in honest truth....you're not even worth being friends with...cause all you think is about yourself and how the world don't understand you and don't want to spend time with you or talk to you.....little did you know and see that unlike you.....other people have plans and things to do....more important then spending time doing nothing with you......

I may be harsh here but it's all truth....accept it or just ignore it...your choice...but I stand on my ground by saying waste my time will = to ignored and scolded......

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

the voice within a torn soul

been shedding tears almost every night...
i think it's time to let it go with all my might...
since there is nobody who understands how i feel...
it's best that i leave the painful memories to be unhealed....
this way there won't be anymore hurt for me...
for all the painful memories will disappear from me...
cause if there is no effort to savage the thoughts....
then there won't be anymore greater lost...

how to let go and move on like they always say...
when the people who hurt you are those you love and wish to stay....
putting a smile upon your own face...
making sure they put a smile on their face...
telling them things will turn out right at the end...
even thought it means that you have to make amends...
how come they don't see what am doing for them...
why must the always hurt me and pretend...

Wednesday, August 5, 2009